The Dating Saga Continues

My problem right now:
What it all comes down to is that boy I have dated for month is busy. Too busy to communicate with me, but not too busy to check match. SO. Reasonable deduction is that boy is not into me anymore. Why? WHO KNOWS? Cuz he hasn't told me and I thought it was all going along hunky fucking dory.

But I am a smart girl. And I will rebound fast. But Jeez, do I hate dating. I tried looking for a minute or so tonight. Blah! Boring! Liar! Puh-lease! Next!* And then I don't want to date anymore. Ever again. But I've paid for 3 months and I wasted a month and a half with boy who pretended to be into me. So what's a smart girl to do? Suck it up and do it all over again. Eh. Maybe tomorrow?

I really want to find out what the hell is wrong with him. Or me. Or WHATEVER. Because it's OK not to be into someone anymore. It's not OK to leave them hanging. But I am a smart girl. Closure is for dummies. Who needs closure??? (I do.)


*which I am sure other people do to my profile as well. But that's the great thing about online dating.

Why I love my EK, Reason 43

My Electric Kettle turns itself automatically off. I may have read something to that effect on the box while taking it out to make it's first cup of pgtips... but having it happen this morning made my day.

Really people, it's the little things.

I like non-violent bullets

This post is not about people that make me unhappy. IS NOT. It is about random happy things that happened today.

• H's birthday was today: She, Em, and I went to have yummy indian food. One year old little boys that feed themselves are MESSY. But entertaining.
• I set up an appointment to hang out with potential mom and 4 month old boy on Friday. Time spent making money and hanging out with cute kids will always trump mind-numbing games (which have filled my time for the past 2 months of only working 25 hours a week).
• Sttcountr does a semi-accurate satellite map of my stalkers (I mean readers). Wee! Sidekck users and Vzn dial up seem to be weird and totally off, but it's fun to monitor my mom's usage. Muuhahahahahahahahaha.
• I get to hang out with two of my dearest girly-girl friends this week. Gooooo Gina! (as in Va-Gina)
• I'm reading a whole lot more. The third LOTR and several Shakespeare plays have been on my headboard for months. I also have several new books that have caught my fancy. Gooooo Literacy!
• I stood up for myself tonight in my dating saga. Because I can't say the Gina Chant unless I act like I own one.
• I get to hang out with a one year old tomorrow who laughs at me all day long. Cuz I'm entertaining. Holla!

Yet Again...

I've started putting my faith into someone that may or may not be a good match for me. My gut is telling me he's not that into me. At the same time that I am waiting for a call, an email, a carrier pigeon acknowledging my attempts to set up plans with this person, I ended up not working today, putting off plans with friends.

I did go out with Bee and I receieved a sweet call from El Boliviano. EB, who knows that if you want to be friends with someone, you have to talk to them. If you want to be more than friends, you better talk more.

I hate dating with a fucking passion.

Thank You

• Car in front of me on my drive home. Your 50 bumper stickers (if you're not appalled, you're not paying attention...I'm a rocker, I rock out...free trade...) entertained me on the way home. And almost made me run into you 50 times. Once for every sticker.
• BigRy for making me bangin spaghetti that made me NOT go drink tonight. Hurray for saving money and empty calories!
• Nat for making me go look at my past, and realise my life is better without that part.
• Queen Bee and H for their glorious references stating I am a good kid-watcher.
• Addiction to Grandia2 for almost being over. 26 hours of gameplay and the damn thing is almost over.
• Dreams for letting me be near people I love.
• Expdia for offering a cheap fare to London for my bday that I might just have to borrow money for but DAMN I need to get out of the country.
• Wonderful people who gave me good tips today. Fuck the 15%-ers.

My Saturday Night

2 sam whites. 2 amaretto sours. 2 tequilla shots.

= hangover and emotional emails to friends.

Sorry!

Playing the Waiting Game

I'm waiting for:

• Answers to my crgslist nannying post
• U of MD... did I get in? do I need to move?
• More hours at the restaurant
• A Date with the Happiest Bunny out there.
• An email, text or call from a boy who I would like to spend time with this week and who I am rejecting other male attention from on the grounds that I like him and he's busy and I know this and I am being a big sappy baby because even if I don't like vd, I still want him to say he WANTS to spend that capitalistic craptastic holiday with me
• Me to stop being such a baby

I had a really good day today. Ok money at work (thank god for next door neighbors). Good times with Alissa at Ikea (aka ToysRUs for grown-ups, but without the porn-like connotation).

My ToDo List is near completion this week. I could weep from all the joy in my heart. I've seen my parents twice this year. I am fulfilling at least one of my resolutions. Maybe I should work less and get more things done during the week and only make enough to support my basic needs and never travel again. Nevermind.

stolen from savia

20 people, 20 sentences (stolen from savia)

I worry about you daily and wonder if things will ever be right again for you.
You make me cry everytime I think of you.
I wish you were still single.
I'm so glad I can tell you everything, even the nasty stuff.
I'm sorry that I am a bad friend.
I would give anything to hear you say, "you'll always be my girl."
You frustrate me and make me happy at the same time.
I want you to apologize for being such an asshole to me.
I wish you were more compassionate.
I wish you would be more responsible.
You make me so angry- why would you fuck with my future like that?
Thank you for sticking up for me AND making me take responsibility for my faults.
I wish you would show interest in me.
You remind me of everything I love about this world.
I want you to live forever.
You disgust me.
I think your girlfriend hates me sometimes.
I don't think I can ever forgive you for all the malice you inflicted, even when you die.
You drive me crazy and I adore you more each day that I spend with you.
You are one of the sexiest people I know.

Date 2

I saw the guy again. I like him enough to subject him to my coworkers and bar patrons at the restaurant for a football party (our second date). I'm moving too fast.

I'm freaking out about this whole vd thing... Valentines Day, not venereal disease, as I've lovingly called it in the past. I had planned that night alone at the movies watching my VERY FAVORITE old film: The Lady Eve. I love Barbara Stanwyck in the worst way. Do I want to share this with the new guy? Hmm... or give it up so I don't seem pushy and selfish, like we can only do things I want to do? This dating shit sucks. Except the kissing. That's kinda cool. Sometimes though I do wonder if I've been independent too long. I want to do what I want when I want. If I need something: I do it, buy it, achieve it myself. This isn't very couple-dy-doo-da-day like.

I'm contemplating doing something on my todo list: laundry, go through papers, clean closet/go through massive amounts of clothes I don't even look at, write reference for adoption of Em, and sew 2 sets of ripped pants. What's the likelihood of me doing any of these things tonight? One? Two? Hm. I think I am going to go play a game. Todo's are for Wednesdays anyway.

Lil Updates

My twin is leaving me and going to Kentucky, then London. I am so jealous. Mostly about the London part. I mean, I've never been to Kentucky, but I hear Louisville is fun!

I had a good date on Wednesday night with a really nice guy. We talked travel and medical stuff. It was great. Heheh. More on that later, maybe. I'm jaded and I would rather not curse it however it may turn out.

Off to Friday Monk Night with Bee!